This morning went to unstitch. Dr tham say everything v gd n Tt clots are out.
I really think my mil has tried her best give me foods Tt I dare eat n can pass out clots. Of cus, I also credit myself for pumping n nt eating anything forbidden . Seriously I wondered how I did that. Preg can't but confinement so far I hv no cravings AT ALL. In fact I enjoy all the food I nvr liked before. I think I'm too hungry n tired to choose.
It's depressing today cos 2 things happened. I left hm for an hour to vent anger n shop for dad birthday.
1. My mum actually caused me throw away a bottle of Bm because I suddenly realize n witness she nvr wash my pump set with detergent! OMG! No wonder it looked weird n dirty. Wasted n I pump b hard for this set. Really pissed with brainless peeps!
2. The mil getting on my nerves. A swaddle with hat or not. My bb already got strength wriggle out even if v tightly swaddled. 3rd time since Chloe HM, I caught her 3rd time almost suffocated. Crying n v scared. N mil could laugh it off!!! I cannot tolerate repeated mistakes!!
Either my hormones changing or I really cannot tolerate anymore. My tears seem to flow ultra easily lately.
Dear baby,
Ur my motivation. I will not fall.
