Today, I went with my papa, so he could
a) drive me there,
b) watch the foetus move
c) watch how a gynae works
d) send me home
And the very excited papa enjoyed watching the sonographer "thump" and "bash" my tummy with her "scanner thing". This is done in order to make my baby move, stretch, and achieve the position she need in order to take the most accurate photos.
The lucky me, got my 3 photos done in appr 20mins.
According to my friends later on, some went through a horrible half day trip.
I then went to lvl 6 for my blood test.
The doctor was the same doctor who took blood for my husband.
She is really not attentive, over confident and 粗鲁.
Anyway, finally I got my test done after poking few times which took one hour.
(why, she ask me to go out drink water, drink water, drink more warm water so my veins could show)
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The minute i got home,
I vomit like a merlion.
I have been trying to control my HAI XI (morning sickness) by at least not throwing out what I ate.
As my apetite started going downhill from 8-2 meals a day.
Sadly, this vomitting continued and I hardly ate anything since everything came out.
And needless to say, I had restless night.
Friday, March 29, 2013
14th March
I had my 2nd scan at the gynae. This time, my hubby came!
I was given duphaston to continue until my next appointment as I was not sure whether I had this light spotting or just urine stains.
Anyway, to be on the safe side, my gynae wanted me to continue this medication. Accordingly, this is the western 安胎药.
And so, by today, my baby is 8weeks, and I could even feel it kick.
I suppose this is because I have dual wombs?
This miraculously kick got me pain, and excited. And of cos, the hubby's grins couldnt be hidden.
And all the more, the pampered and frightened and kiasu,kiasi me, dont dare to move much.
I continued most of my days bed resting watching vcds and doing research.
I was due for an Oscar scan compulsory for all pregnant women (in this generation at least), on my next appt.
My hubby didnt have time to accompany me for Oscar, so he took his blood test today instead.
We would be getting results only around a week after OSCAR has been done.
OSCAR comprises of a scan to see thickness of my baby's neck, and to be compared with both our blood test results. If it shows, high risk (which doctor says usually is only when both families has any history of down syndromes), then on the 20th week, more actions would be required, such as another test to affirm, and then the poor mum might have to decide/forced for abortion.
I was given duphaston to continue until my next appointment as I was not sure whether I had this light spotting or just urine stains.
Anyway, to be on the safe side, my gynae wanted me to continue this medication. Accordingly, this is the western 安胎药.
And so, by today, my baby is 8weeks, and I could even feel it kick.
I suppose this is because I have dual wombs?
This miraculously kick got me pain, and excited. And of cos, the hubby's grins couldnt be hidden.
And all the more, the pampered and frightened and kiasu,kiasi me, dont dare to move much.
I continued most of my days bed resting watching vcds and doing research.
I was due for an Oscar scan compulsory for all pregnant women (in this generation at least), on my next appt.
My hubby didnt have time to accompany me for Oscar, so he took his blood test today instead.
We would be getting results only around a week after OSCAR has been done.
OSCAR comprises of a scan to see thickness of my baby's neck, and to be compared with both our blood test results. If it shows, high risk (which doctor says usually is only when both families has any history of down syndromes), then on the 20th week, more actions would be required, such as another test to affirm, and then the poor mum might have to decide/forced for abortion.
Coming into March
Coming into March,
during these few weeks of bed rest, I tried to eat tomatoes, drink ample milk, and have ample rest.
But like i said, i seem to have gotten depression.
I cry unneccesarily and unexpectedly.
This got my family and even friends worried.
I have nightmares every night about KKH, and I also kept going to the loo throughout the night.
As GOOGLED and asked, this is natural for all pregnant women during the first trimester as the baby is growing and pressing on my urine chord.
Now then I know why, women need pads and diapers still.
Trust me, I can pee like every 5 minutes.
Some days, it is better, few times an hour only.
So one day, I had to go out to get food, and I just peed! Yes, I was few steps away from home. I couldnt control obviously and tadah, pee leaked.
So I know, like all tv dramas, 我突然了解当妈的感受,经历. GOSH, mummies, i truly salute all of u !
Not that i dont appreciate mummies previously, but LIKE i say, i got really really appreciative.
during these few weeks of bed rest, I tried to eat tomatoes, drink ample milk, and have ample rest.
But like i said, i seem to have gotten depression.
I cry unneccesarily and unexpectedly.
This got my family and even friends worried.
I have nightmares every night about KKH, and I also kept going to the loo throughout the night.
As GOOGLED and asked, this is natural for all pregnant women during the first trimester as the baby is growing and pressing on my urine chord.
Now then I know why, women need pads and diapers still.
Trust me, I can pee like every 5 minutes.
Some days, it is better, few times an hour only.
So one day, I had to go out to get food, and I just peed! Yes, I was few steps away from home. I couldnt control obviously and tadah, pee leaked.
So I know, like all tv dramas, 我突然了解当妈的感受,经历. GOSH, mummies, i truly salute all of u !
Not that i dont appreciate mummies previously, but LIKE i say, i got really really appreciative.
18th feb
First appointment at TMC.
And without doubt, being kiasu, I of cos changed my tmc appt and went at a later date , which was on 18th.
Together with my mum, we went to see Dr Yvonne Chan.
This is my first time stepping into an official gynae clinic.
Everyone was with their big tummies. Only me , look like I was coming for abortion. HAHA
Anyway, the nurses and the doctor was patient, nice and friendly.
Gynae examined me and said my baby was fine, protected by the 氧水. However, as like the previous gynaes, she cautioned me to take ample rest, and best bed-ridden until my baby is big and stable.
So with her words, i obediently went home and be a good 'mum-to-be'.
Why did i consult 2 gynaes?
Family history (i mean stories) were told that, like my joo chiat case, some gynae fail to identify babies. And I also wanted to try TMC and compare the service standards and see which gynae was more 投缘.
In the end, of cos I chose Dr Yvonne.
And I went home with another set of Duphaston to eat and of cos folic acid as well.
So I bed rest for the next couple of weeks.
And without doubt, being kiasu, I of cos changed my tmc appt and went at a later date , which was on 18th.
Together with my mum, we went to see Dr Yvonne Chan.
This is my first time stepping into an official gynae clinic.
Everyone was with their big tummies. Only me , look like I was coming for abortion. HAHA
Anyway, the nurses and the doctor was patient, nice and friendly.
Gynae examined me and said my baby was fine, protected by the 氧水. However, as like the previous gynaes, she cautioned me to take ample rest, and best bed-ridden until my baby is big and stable.
So with her words, i obediently went home and be a good 'mum-to-be'.
Why did i consult 2 gynaes?
Family history (i mean stories) were told that, like my joo chiat case, some gynae fail to identify babies. And I also wanted to try TMC and compare the service standards and see which gynae was more 投缘.
In the end, of cos I chose Dr Yvonne.
And I went home with another set of Duphaston to eat and of cos folic acid as well.
So I bed rest for the next couple of weeks.
13th feb KKH
At KKH,
The doctor didnt have my records obviously. So they only wanted me to wait on the bed, do a blood test. and wait to see whether it proved I was pregnant.
I was totally dumbfounded, scared and waiting on the bed while still bleeding.
So on the next bed, came few pregnant women, who got into some accidents.
Woman A:
Doc my baby has no heartbeat, still alive?
Doc:
Yes la, no worries. Just rest.
Woman A of cos didnt believe and made a din. The husband came and the arguments continued.
Similar scenario happend to Woman B.
And what happen to woman C? she is a cgh patient who went missing.
*i guess she couldnt bear the long wait, and ran off. haha*
After an almost 2 hours wait, the blood test result finally came. And doctor say, we have given our best speed for you. Bleeding is common, and there is nothing we can do for you if you miscarriaged.
So, a scan was done and it showed the ovulated egg.
YES, in my right womb rest an egg, a baby, that is by then, 4-5weeks old.
And so, i asked, will I miscariage since I got 2 wombs?
The gynae was dumbfounded by what the joo chiat doctor told me. But nevertheless, she said, some doctors are not tactful lah. I was thinking, SO ARE YOU.
And I went to collect my medication which include Duphaston and vitamin C.
I then proceeded home where the bleeding still came abit abit. But the only pain, was caused by my fear.
I had restless nights for the next few weeks. my family and i began to doubt i have depression/ trauma. haiz
The doctor didnt have my records obviously. So they only wanted me to wait on the bed, do a blood test. and wait to see whether it proved I was pregnant.
I was totally dumbfounded, scared and waiting on the bed while still bleeding.
So on the next bed, came few pregnant women, who got into some accidents.
Woman A:
Doc my baby has no heartbeat, still alive?
Doc:
Yes la, no worries. Just rest.
Woman A of cos didnt believe and made a din. The husband came and the arguments continued.
Similar scenario happend to Woman B.
And what happen to woman C? she is a cgh patient who went missing.
*i guess she couldnt bear the long wait, and ran off. haha*
After an almost 2 hours wait, the blood test result finally came. And doctor say, we have given our best speed for you. Bleeding is common, and there is nothing we can do for you if you miscarriaged.
So, a scan was done and it showed the ovulated egg.
YES, in my right womb rest an egg, a baby, that is by then, 4-5weeks old.
And so, i asked, will I miscariage since I got 2 wombs?
The gynae was dumbfounded by what the joo chiat doctor told me. But nevertheless, she said, some doctors are not tactful lah. I was thinking, SO ARE YOU.
And I went to collect my medication which include Duphaston and vitamin C.
I then proceeded home where the bleeding still came abit abit. But the only pain, was caused by my fear.
I had restless nights for the next few weeks. my family and i began to doubt i have depression/ trauma. haiz
Hopes
And so i continued my hopes.
Nearing mid january, my nauseous symptoms persisted.
My brother was going to mustafa. And having read xiaxue's blog, I know that is this $2 pregnancy test kit. At least it worked on her. So, my bro got me 5!
Anyway, not bearing much hopes, I tested casually. Positive. Like in a split second?
normally kits dont work on me. takes like 1-5mins for any (negative) result to show.
In the end, all 3 kits at different times of the day took split second to show positive.
I googled of cos.
High hcg will cause even faster reaction from kits.
Hence, I didnt want to go to doctor that fast having learnt my lesson.
I tested for the next few days.
All positive.
I then arranged to go Thomson clinic, Dr Yvonne Chan as recommended by my cousins.
One day before the appointment date, i went kbox with my friends to pre-celebrate.
Before 13th, I had 'gentle' sex. I also ate alot plums from my mum in law.
I have hardly sang any song, and suddenly the sofa felt wet.
AND tadah, I was thinking did my menses come????????????
But it was fresh blood. No pain, no cramp.
Only fear.
I rush to the toilet to clean myself and check. The autoflush flushed something that drop into the bowl. I didnt have time to think or react. But I immediately called my mum and dad and rush myself to the nearest hosp, KKH.
Nearing mid january, my nauseous symptoms persisted.
My brother was going to mustafa. And having read xiaxue's blog, I know that is this $2 pregnancy test kit. At least it worked on her. So, my bro got me 5!
Anyway, not bearing much hopes, I tested casually. Positive. Like in a split second?
normally kits dont work on me. takes like 1-5mins for any (negative) result to show.
In the end, all 3 kits at different times of the day took split second to show positive.
I googled of cos.
High hcg will cause even faster reaction from kits.
Hence, I didnt want to go to doctor that fast having learnt my lesson.
I tested for the next few days.
All positive.
I then arranged to go Thomson clinic, Dr Yvonne Chan as recommended by my cousins.
One day before the appointment date, i went kbox with my friends to pre-celebrate.
Before 13th, I had 'gentle' sex. I also ate alot plums from my mum in law.
I have hardly sang any song, and suddenly the sofa felt wet.
AND tadah, I was thinking did my menses come????????????
But it was fresh blood. No pain, no cramp.
Only fear.
I rush to the toilet to clean myself and check. The autoflush flushed something that drop into the bowl. I didnt have time to think or react. But I immediately called my mum and dad and rush myself to the nearest hosp, KKH.
9th Jan
Hello to the birthday girl.
And so, I could almost be a sulking woman.
I could to go work, i just sunk into eating junk food. I thought perhaps food could cheer me up.
At this point in time, nobody could cheer me up no matter what.
Why did i crave for a baby when I am not that finacially prepared?
I am a lymphoma cancer patient in 2007.
I braved through this horrible period of my life.
In 2008, i recovered.
In 2012, I got married to my love.
and in 2013, I was retrenched by the bank.
And that was during my marriage , almost the entire team burnt.
Nevertheless, I was about to resign and venture into my apparel business anyway.
I wanted to accomplish 2 things.
Business venture and should I fail, I can always go back to work.
Get a baby. I hope that should one day I pass on, leaving my kid(s) behind for my husband and families would be great memory and gift. And I hope to do it asap. I dont believe in having to have 400k to own a kid. I only believe (naively i know), that, a baby can complete a family as well as, as long as I work hard, i can definitely feed my baby and myself.
And of cos lah, the very pampered kid, I have financial backing from my dad. That is, if i really that broke.
As of now, I definitely can go without a job, and feed my kid with my remaining savings even if my biz failed. Hence, I know if i got a child, i can afford to wait til it is born and perhaps til 1-2years old.
Of course, after I complete this dream, I can go get a job and help my husband release burdens.
Yes, many think why are u trying to conceive when You are running a biz, You have just completed deg, You could continue ur sales bank life. WHY?
I wanted to be a full woman. Yes, im really traditional. But which woman, even a lesbian, as time pass, in one moment, or one particular day, every woman will hope to have someone to rely on, and most like me, would hope to have a kid, be it my own child, or adopted.
And so, I could almost be a sulking woman.
I could to go work, i just sunk into eating junk food. I thought perhaps food could cheer me up.
At this point in time, nobody could cheer me up no matter what.
Why did i crave for a baby when I am not that finacially prepared?
I am a lymphoma cancer patient in 2007.
I braved through this horrible period of my life.
In 2008, i recovered.
In 2012, I got married to my love.
and in 2013, I was retrenched by the bank.
And that was during my marriage , almost the entire team burnt.
Nevertheless, I was about to resign and venture into my apparel business anyway.
I wanted to accomplish 2 things.
Business venture and should I fail, I can always go back to work.
Get a baby. I hope that should one day I pass on, leaving my kid(s) behind for my husband and families would be great memory and gift. And I hope to do it asap. I dont believe in having to have 400k to own a kid. I only believe (naively i know), that, a baby can complete a family as well as, as long as I work hard, i can definitely feed my baby and myself.
And of cos lah, the very pampered kid, I have financial backing from my dad. That is, if i really that broke.
As of now, I definitely can go without a job, and feed my kid with my remaining savings even if my biz failed. Hence, I know if i got a child, i can afford to wait til it is born and perhaps til 1-2years old.
Of course, after I complete this dream, I can go get a job and help my husband release burdens.
Yes, many think why are u trying to conceive when You are running a biz, You have just completed deg, You could continue ur sales bank life. WHY?
I wanted to be a full woman. Yes, im really traditional. But which woman, even a lesbian, as time pass, in one moment, or one particular day, every woman will hope to have someone to rely on, and most like me, would hope to have a kid, be it my own child, or adopted.
Trying to get a baby, but end up found out i have 2 wombs
3rd jan 2013,
I was still pretty dismayed that I didnt got a baby on my first try in Dec 2012. HAHA!
So, I didnt get the xmas present i wanted. Of cos, I was trying my luck.
On 4th Jan, I was puzzled by the fact I am feeling unwell.
I googled and thought I am having symptoms of first few weeks pregnancy!
And as you know, being a kiasu mum-wannabe, i wanted to try my luck see if i'd get my birthday present instead!
My menses was of cos due on 4th, but one in awhile it is not on time.
Nevertheless, being bored, i tested, and of cos negative.
I went to clinic later on thinking doctor might know more, as well as if it wasnt pregnancy, then i must be sick, like a food poisoning.
So this GP at bedok claimed that I could just be pregnant but in my first few weeks. However, he only hear my symptoms and feel my tummy thats all.
Off i went to a male gynae in Joo chiat as recommended by this Dr Henry.
And urine test- negative
scan- negative
pets smear- show i had 2 wombs.
what could be worse?
Going in with nurses congratulaing me even before i tested.
And coming out in tears.
Why?
The doctor and nurse was giggling and almost laughing at how "inhuman" i am. they called me WONDERWOMAN.
At this point in time, i only felt depress, humiliated. And upon inquiries, Doctor says It is almost impossible to conceive with 2 wombs, and that not just first few, but many pregnancies I might get, but chances of miscarriage is 100% to him.
Alright, so believing in how unlucky i got, i almost wanted to die that very instant.
My dad immediately came to fetch me and counselled me.
So ok, i was home finally, eating my fav mac as my dad tried to cheer me up.
The husband came home and took the night to console me.
I was afraid I was really 'infertile/adnormal human' and next fear was that the husband might 抗拒 me! i mean, if my husband were to tell me he has 4 balls i'd be scared for a start too.
or even silently be depressed that he wont and might not have a descendent.
Although my husband like most men, dont desire a baby, but I know, if i were to have one, not only will he take responsibility, he'd be a very good papa, just like he is as a husband.
I was still pretty dismayed that I didnt got a baby on my first try in Dec 2012. HAHA!
So, I didnt get the xmas present i wanted. Of cos, I was trying my luck.
On 4th Jan, I was puzzled by the fact I am feeling unwell.
I googled and thought I am having symptoms of first few weeks pregnancy!
And as you know, being a kiasu mum-wannabe, i wanted to try my luck see if i'd get my birthday present instead!
My menses was of cos due on 4th, but one in awhile it is not on time.
Nevertheless, being bored, i tested, and of cos negative.
I went to clinic later on thinking doctor might know more, as well as if it wasnt pregnancy, then i must be sick, like a food poisoning.
So this GP at bedok claimed that I could just be pregnant but in my first few weeks. However, he only hear my symptoms and feel my tummy thats all.
Off i went to a male gynae in Joo chiat as recommended by this Dr Henry.
And urine test- negative
scan- negative
pets smear- show i had 2 wombs.
what could be worse?
Going in with nurses congratulaing me even before i tested.
And coming out in tears.
Why?
The doctor and nurse was giggling and almost laughing at how "inhuman" i am. they called me WONDERWOMAN.
At this point in time, i only felt depress, humiliated. And upon inquiries, Doctor says It is almost impossible to conceive with 2 wombs, and that not just first few, but many pregnancies I might get, but chances of miscarriage is 100% to him.
Alright, so believing in how unlucky i got, i almost wanted to die that very instant.
My dad immediately came to fetch me and counselled me.
So ok, i was home finally, eating my fav mac as my dad tried to cheer me up.
The husband came home and took the night to console me.
I was afraid I was really 'infertile/adnormal human' and next fear was that the husband might 抗拒 me! i mean, if my husband were to tell me he has 4 balls i'd be scared for a start too.
or even silently be depressed that he wont and might not have a descendent.
Although my husband like most men, dont desire a baby, but I know, if i were to have one, not only will he take responsibility, he'd be a very good papa, just like he is as a husband.
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