3rd jan 2013,
I was still pretty dismayed that I didnt got a baby on my first try in Dec 2012. HAHA!
So, I didnt get the xmas present i wanted. Of cos, I was trying my luck.
On 4th Jan, I was puzzled by the fact I am feeling unwell.
I googled and thought I am having symptoms of first few weeks pregnancy!
And as you know, being a kiasu mum-wannabe, i wanted to try my luck see if i'd get my birthday present instead!
My menses was of cos due on 4th, but one in awhile it is not on time.
Nevertheless, being bored, i tested, and of cos negative.
I went to clinic later on thinking doctor might know more, as well as if it wasnt pregnancy, then i must be sick, like a food poisoning.
So this GP at bedok claimed that I could just be pregnant but in my first few weeks. However, he only hear my symptoms and feel my tummy thats all.
Off i went to a male gynae in Joo chiat as recommended by this Dr Henry.
And urine test- negative
scan- negative
pets smear- show i had 2 wombs.
what could be worse?
Going in with nurses congratulaing me even before i tested.
And coming out in tears.
Why?
The doctor and nurse was giggling and almost laughing at how "inhuman" i am. they called me WONDERWOMAN.
At this point in time, i only felt depress, humiliated. And upon inquiries, Doctor says It is almost impossible to conceive with 2 wombs, and that not just first few, but many pregnancies I might get, but chances of miscarriage is 100% to him.
Alright, so believing in how unlucky i got, i almost wanted to die that very instant.
My dad immediately came to fetch me and counselled me.
So ok, i was home finally, eating my fav mac as my dad tried to cheer me up.
The husband came home and took the night to console me.
I was afraid I was really 'infertile/adnormal human' and next fear was that the husband might 抗拒 me! i mean, if my husband were to tell me he has 4 balls i'd be scared for a start too.
or even silently be depressed that he wont and might not have a descendent.
Although my husband like most men, dont desire a baby, but I know, if i were to have one, not only will he take responsibility, he'd be a very good papa, just like he is as a husband.
