Miscarriaged

On 9th dec, just as I saw a faint line thinking I'm accidentally pregnant, I had a massive aching then terrible pain that was a lot times worse than menses. Then I felt something flow. Clots. N there, I'm late for menses or maybe I'm not. I feel heartache. Like a part of me is lost. 

I tried for bb again in dec. Thinking ovulation is XMAS week. Yes, the time came I have missed my menses no matter how late it was suppose to come. 

After almost 20 kits, all digital showed I'm preg 1-2 weeks. And I tot scan might not have anything but I'm just kpo. I sense something is not right. 

So I went. Only to be told I have miscarriaged. Or going to miscarriage. Left womb nothing anymore. Right womb looks positive. However it's past my dates. Weeks already but no sign of a sac. Hence he concluded I have miscarriaged. Blighted ovum I googled. 

Dear babies, I really wish U all can come to our family. Dear right womb, I'm going scan soon. Pls be alive. Pls let mummy love U.